Getting your thoughts down on paper like this can do a lot of good Kaz. It's unfiltered and it's fitting for you as you're dealing with so many new things and your thoughts are a mess.

I believe it's important to be writing with your mind and in the same way as you would when you talk. It's authentic and genuine and people can relate to it. Even if it's a jumbled mess, it's fun to be reading through it and to get insights into what's going on and what's on your mind. Keep it up. :D